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Alex [Shisuke]
12 April 2009 @ 12:37 am
Well, Le prometi a Sayisa que actualizara esta cosa so anyway, empezemos por lo basico.

This is me. The chainis, el chino, Shin, Shisuke, Keichi, Alex, pero nunca JAMAS NEVER IN THE LIFE Alejandro.

Tengo 19 años,Soy del Signo Geminis, Habitante y Sumo sacerdote del Pais arcoiris.

Trabajo como productor de teatro, Alguna vez fui Barista de Starbucks. Estoy enamorado, pero no del amor. Discuto demasiado, juego mucho, me distraigo facilmente. Estudie 2 años Derecho, ahora estudio Ciencias de la Comunicacion , lo cual siempre fue mi pasion. Hago mas cosas de las que deberia, y me muevo muy poco a pesar de todo lo que hago.

No creo en Dios, pero creo en las probabilidades. De hecho, creo que no creo ni en mi mismo. Siento estoy algo loco, pero ¿Quien no?.

Vivo en Peru (Pero desearia ser Europeo, o vivir en Metzico con mis amigos), en un modestisisisisisimo departamento alla en La Molina. Sueño con escribir y publicar lo que escribo. Pero no me doy tiempo de escribir.

Quiero recorrer el mundo, quiero aprender idiomas y tener un bronceado de esos que salen en las peliculas y son mas artificilaes que las boobies de una bailarina de cabaret. Tambien quiero un Ipoid, no Iphone, ni nada, solo quiero mi Ipoid.

Y...¿Ya?

Luego los aburro con mi vida en algun post.
 
 
Current Location: La vieja silla blanca
Current Mood: dirty
Current Music: Un astronauta solo, flotando - Fangoria
 
 
Alex [Shisuke]
21 January 2008 @ 03:23 am

I love to write, it might not look like but I surely do, is just I don’t have the time.

Or the will. I have lost many, many things in this time, I have lost not only the will, but the passion, I have lost everything that once made me special. I keep asking myself if this is worth of, I think not.

I want to love someone, I want to feel the passion and the desire through my entire body again, but, do I deserve it? Sometimes I think is my fate to be like this, maybe if I could be someone else, if I could be less shy when it comes to guys, if I only could step over this painful memories.

But I can’t and slowly, the way things are going make me feel so useless. I want someone just for me, But no one really wants me, I know how to be alone, but I don’t really like it, since there is nothing else to do but charge with this weight , someday I hope, you will have the dare to see me in the eyes again, or I will be strong enough to step away, You said you could have me whenever you wanted, and it’s true, I can’t deny it, you have the control and I'm just a toy.

But one day, your toy will break himself, and there will be no one to play anymore, not the one that screams that he loves you, not the persons that betray you, not this moment or this “romance” will help you and you know that, you say you don’t need me but you are still looking for me

Nothing haves sense, but when does it haves it? It is always been like this when it comes to us.

But we aren’t us anymore aren’t we? We are you and me, and we will never ever be “We” Again, so I might just shut up now, and learn to deal with it. Until that day comes, when I step over you, corpses for the happy days will gather at my foots

 

 

Oh what do you know? You know nothing....
 
 
Current Location: Lost in the past
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: Maaya Sakamoto - Gravity
 
 
Alex [Shisuke]
25 November 2007 @ 06:13 am
I like this live journal thing and all, but... i can't stand how n00b does my page look in comparison with others. Anyway, if some graceful soul wants to help me, i will be glad to be helped.

I have to go to work in like 3 hours, maybe i should sleep =_=?
 
 
Current Location: Under my stained memories
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Placebo - Running up that hill
 
 
Alex [Shisuke]
24 November 2007 @ 06:47 am
So, hi, everyone who is reading this should be...

A) Very, VERY Bored

B) Curious about me

Whatever, for those who don't know me, let me tell you about me and my situation. My name is Alejandro, but i like more when people call me Alex, im 18 years old, im gay and im from Peru. Five months ago the relationship with the boy who was my boyfriend for two years ended. Why did he broke up with me? Because he couldn't stand animore my spoiled girl probules, because i didn't know  how to understand hims limits and mines, we break up because no one had the guts to say what he dind't liked of the other. So? I miss him...  i stil love him a lot, and he is certanily the most importante person in my life. when everything was messed up and i were always thinking that my life was worthless he showed up and maed me smile, i fell inlove with him, it has been almost 3 years from that day, and i still feel that memorie warm.

I would lie if i say that i dind't hated him in that time, i wanted him to be unhappy, i wished him to be hurted so much that he would have to come back asking for another chance, i wished him to be alone and die, damn i sure did it, but my horror was inmense when i knowed that he was with hims ex again, who treated him like garbage, made him the saddest person i have seen in my whole life, that bastard.But.... I don't have the right to say a thing, we lost contact for two months, we stoped to talk each other, our friendship was diying slowly, he and i were only strangers in the same place, so close, yet so far, so i just wen't away and let him go

But, not so much time ago, we startet to talk to each other, he wanted to talk with me, he said he missed me, that he still liked me just like me, that he was still feeling nostalgic, but that he will stay with his boyfriend, that even if he tried to kill that feeling he was still mad at me, there was still something that bond us together, we can't just walk away from each other life, taking all the past away, we started to talk after 3 long months, he was happy, i was happy, everything was okay

And then...

His boyfriend is very jealous, and i just can't stand each other, he hates me, and i hate him too, he entered at my ex¡s mail and we started to argue, not sending insults to each others, it was more like ironies and presions, i was mad so i entered at my ex's msn, i still knowed hims password, well... i think i know more of him that i know of myself, i throw his bf from his msn, and i stayed there trhowing out him until he got tired and leaved. Later that night, he went to my ex and started to yell him because that he was still talking with me, he got problems by my fault, and he was mad at me for entering at hims msn, so hims bf say "If you don't block him i will be very mad with you!" so i was blocked, the time pased by, alsmot a month, we still don't talk. we are still far away from each other

The other day i gathered all my courage and called him, we talked, and i think it was okay, i don't know what will happen now, his boyfriend knows that he talked with me and my ex was mad with me again, he yelled me and say i should forget about him, but then, he knew the truth, that he boyfriend was lying to him too.

I don't know what will happen now... i don't know how thins will end, i just know i wan't my special person back to me, im scared and i feel like if im going to break down. But you know? He is the one i really love, and i feel that the sacrifice can be done for him. I want him back and i will do anything to take him back to my side, i just can't accept that the best thing that ever happened to me end like this, i don't know how much it will take to fix things but i know i will try as many times is needed

Im afraid to make more mistakes...but im more afraid to loose him forever
 
 
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Garbage - Tell me where it hurts
 
 
 
 

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